Michelle Ryan

So to us, like as the days rolled on, we knew that essentially, yeah, he was missing, but...

But we knew that it wasn't it wasn't the fact that, oh, we were ever going to, you know, we're ever going to find him and ask him what's going on and whatever, you know, as the days rolled on, as the hours rolled on, actually, that that became a stark reality to us.

So, yeah, it's just like to say, like, obviously, the 15 year anniversary, it's it's it's it's

It's heartbreaking.

It's gruelling.

I can't believe it's 15 years, but it is 15 years because to us, we're still back in the third of June 2011.

Should I find a thing?

Yeah.

But when his van was found in the woods and we didn't know at the time, but his body was back on the...

on the land, on the farm where Patrick Quirk killed him.

What were your initial thoughts?

You know, in those few days, you say, before the realisation came dropping slowly that something terrible had happened.

When he was initially missing, what did you think?

That something bad had happened to him.

It was kind of like, you know, in the early morning of 2011 on the tour de June, I was trying to, I don't know, I was trying to convince myself saying, oh, no, look, it's the fabulous day he could be after going to Tremor.

Knowing full right and well that Niall had called to his house to see if he was OK.

That could never have been a possibility.

So I think in

In the hours, in the few short hours before I got down to Tipperary Town, I was trying to convince myself that, no, there's an explanation for all of this.

But the more the time went on and the more messages that we were sending to Daddy, the more we were trying to get through to his phone and it was off.