Michelle Ryan

I always had this, yeah, I can do it attitude, you know, that kind of thing.

To say that I miss them every day would be an understatement.

I miss the phone calls.

I miss the 20 phone calls every day.

It could be about nothing.

And then there'd be text messages in between.

And yeah, it's...

I don't often come across a situation where I'm stuck for words but when people ask me to describe them I do get stuck for words because you'd have to feel it to understand the explanation and you'd have to feel what we're left without every day in a sense like it

We know Daddy is resting now and that's all we ever hoped for from the 3rd of June 2011 is that we'd be able to give him a dignified resting ground.

And when we know that he's gone down with his mother and his father, we know he's looked after.

But for us, it's a sense of you do life.

Like Patrick Quirk will come out and what if...

We contested and we lose.

He can come out in five years.

For us, we're still locked in a forever scenario where it's going to be, you're doing life.

We have the cross.

And I can tell you one thing, there's more than two nails gone into it because it's real and truly structured into our backs.

We'll never get rid of it.