Milam Byers

I only say that to say that like, I didn't think I was a victim of trauma.

And there might be people that hear this and don't realize they have trauma.

But I had to have somebody tell me that like, oh no, like that's what happened there.

The fact that you told your parents in the airport and like,

I remember taking their luggage out to the parking garage and we had bought mom a birthday cake.

It was her 50th birthday.

And I see the cake, you know, and it was just like all these like heartbreaking, like moments of like, ah, you know, like that.

That you're engaged, your mom's birthday.

Just that moment where it's like, we're supposed to celebrate.

Yeah.

Mom's 50, we just got engaged.

And you know, it was anything but, and just that,

that realization that man life can be really hard and you lose things that you never wanted to lose.

And so I didn't think I had trauma because I didn't, I wasn't on the ground.

I wasn't in the Humvee, you know, like I didn't see it, but my trauma happened kind of secondarily because of what happened in the desert.

And so,

So fast forward to the blurry part of this that I shared with Nate over lunch.

So, I mean, the military doesn't tell you.

They're not big on details.

Yeah.