Miranda

We were in our swimsuits because we were swimming.

We go into one of our hotel rooms and get into a bathtub together and like turn on the water.

I have such a vivid recollection of looking up and he's just there standing in the doorway and no one thought it was weird.

He is a part of the department and we're all getting drunk and so was he.

And the next day we would go do our scenes and act and then...

We would go home, but this trip in particular, I think, is where he started to show me favors by saving me the front seat in the van.

Or I would sit directly behind him when we were traveling.

Olivia would sit to my right and he would secretly reach his hand back through the door to reach for my hand, which at the time felt really awkward.

normal even though we had never made physical contact like that before but it was just so sneaky he would do stuff that was signals to me like he would text me while we're all at dinner being like so-and-so's being so annoying to bond with me in a particular way or i think it was this trip we like went into this restaurant to get lunch or something and he specifically held me back to buy me lunch almost as if we were on a date which he didn't do for anyone else on the trip at all

Like a month later or something, we would go to Louisville, Kentucky.

Humana Festival is another festival where they put on professional plays for college students.

And it was on the trip of driving to Louisville that he started really quietly calling me babe and baby.

Being on these trips is really when he began to test my boundaries in a different way of being a lot more explicit to me in physical touch, nothing super sexual, but maybe rubbing on my shoulders or holding my hand in secret.

We're like watching a play and he sits next to me and like specifically puts his leg next to mine so that we're touching.

And, you know, I think it's testing me to see if I move away.

The trips were integral.

And then that summer I studied abroad for the first time.

We all went with him to Scotland and we did the Edinburgh French Festival with him.

This time, it was like an international trip with much less supervision.

It was a much smaller group of students as well.