Miranda

And he was the only professor that took us, which seems insane because we were like,

12 girls staying in a house by ourselves in a country where the legal drinking age was only 18.

So we were just wasted all the time and he would invite me and Olivia as a pair to shows by ourselves.

He would specifically leave everyone else in the group out.

He had to bring Olivia so that it was not weird if anyone found out that the three of us were going to see a play together.

It causes a rift between me, Olivia, and the rest of the students because we don't want to be like, oh, we're going to go see a play with Kato.

So we had chosen to not tell a bunch of people.

After Scotland and after the trips of my sophomore year, every day that we were in Scotland, he would text me and would make jokes about getting away and like, oh, don't you wish that we could go do our own thing?

Or it's a bummer that we have to like hang out with everyone, right?

I don't think he would have been able to like groom me in the way that he was without traveling.

After Scotland, we started to text all of the time and it had transitioned into me reaching out more consistently instead of waiting for him to text me only.

That's also when we would start to meet more frequently at school as well.

Around the time that he started to text me more consistently, because I was hanging out with Olivia so much, I had changed the settings in my iPhone to not

have text messages show up on my screen so she wouldn't see him texting me.

I would do the same with Snapchat so that she wouldn't see me Snapchatting him all the time.

As much as he pushed us to be friends, he pushed us to compete against one another.

And it had resulted in me feeling like I didn't want her to have this special attention that I was getting from him.

I didn't want to share it.

I was developing real feelings for him.

It was more than just a crush on your older professor.