Monte Mader

So I drive her there and we get to this room.

There's about a dozen girls.

The oldest is 19.

The youngest is her 12.

Most of them are 15, 16.

All of the fathers, except for one, are over the age of 21.

And only one of the fathers is there because he's the age appropriate boyfriend of one of the girls.

And so I'm sitting in the back of the room and pregnancy has always been in my top three fears.

Like I would rather swim in open water with sharks.

Like it's so scary to me.

I'm sitting in the back turning green as a 23 year old, just like, oh, this is a lot.

But I realized that there was the first time in that moment that I realized I had never heard the church or my dad or anybody call for male accountability.

And I was like, where are these adult men that have impregnated these 15 year olds?

I want to know where the fuck they are.

And I also that was the first time that instead of just defaulting to my my preplanned thought of like, well, you know, two wrongs don't make a right.

And yes, it's not her fault, but it's not the baby's fault.

I was like, you know what?

I don't actually know anything about abortion and the history of abortion.

And I've I've been an insomniac since I was 16.

So that night I spent I was up all night researching abortion in the United States.