MrBallen

If anything, it was just sort of like, yeah, this is it.

That said, I'm thinking about my name spelling in the newspaper or something.

And what it did for me is it made death feel not scary.

And so it's a it's a I want to do more with my life with the second chance.

I do have that feeling, but it's not nearly as pronounced as I don't have a fear of death.

I simply know death is coming.

And I do think about death.

It informs a lot of my decision making, like whatever I want to do.

It's timed against how much time I think I have.

But it's not sad.

It just is.

Yeah.

And I think people are so weary or scared of like, what's going to happen when you die?

And granted, I don't really know, but I got close enough to me.

It was like, you're ready to die.

You just don't know it as messed up as that really is.

And you mentioned earlier that your folks gave ghost tours and you've mentioned several times that you have this affinity for cemeteries, of course.

Was that because your folks gave ghost tours that you have this interest in cemeteries or is this just like innate?

You've just always been interested in them.

Yeah.