Nadia

And it's really my first loving relationship, you know, at 48.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So I definitely feel just those little moments of getting out of this hyper independence and I've got this and I've got not just me, I've got everybody kind of thing.

That vulnerability and that letting myself feel like, oh, if I ask for a little help, do you think someone will come and help me?

And it really just changed everything for me.

For me, it was like this.

I have this control at home and I couldn't be in control of this trip.

There was no way it was going to let me control it.

And so and that's like what Nadia was saying is it was when I was trying to that the freak out would happen.

And when I just.

Let go.

I mean, I did have a whole life orgasm.

She was like, shit.

I was like, oh my God.

Like I literally, my whole body went into an orgasm just from this experience of letting go of the control.

And I remember coming home and,

and they were like my kids were just like mom hang on a minute mom you're so much more chilled you know and they were so used to me like totally yeah and they saw me come back from other retreats where you know i might be chilled for a week and then you know back into that but i must say it

It's completely changed my relationship with them, with my husband, and just made me a much more relaxed person.

Sadly, it takes something big that makes you go, that's not working anymore.