Nadia

I'm not either.

Yeah.

So it's your internal surveillance system and it's basically scanning the world asking, am I safe or am I in danger?

And it creates these

protecting defense mechanisms that keep us safe throughout our childhood and even before we're born so our nervous system's being built in our mothers and it's being transferred through their mother to our mother to us and so if you're

Mother has had a really hard time during birth.

You're going to pick up some of that in your nervous system.

Our mum lost a baby when her baby was 11 months old and Nadia was conceived like a month later.

Or the month that she found out.

The month that our sister died, she had conceived me.

And so only through teaching pregnancy yoga and helping women with their babies did I understand that all that grief was in utero.

So I was kind of growing in this womb of grief.

And then I came into the world and just from the experience of other women, I started to see how they behaved with their babies.

And imagine if you'd lost one right before.

You're just in fear all the time.

You don't know whether to pick it up, put it down.

And sometimes as an adult, you kind of don't understand, like, where is this grief coming from?

Because it's not mine.

Yes.

You know, and it's someone else's.