Nadia

Even waking up in the morning.

As myself with just, you know, not that I wear much makeup anyway, but I don't know.

It was quite exposing for me to really have someone looking at me first thing in the morning.

And it just took practice and awareness and catching myself writing in journals, going for walks.

And I just kept noticing this person was still there, wasn't going anywhere.

Yes, it's amazing if you have a new relationship.

Yes, it's amazing if you have a new house or a new job.

But the nervous system is coming with you into the situation.

And you haven't healed that.

And once the novelty of that thing wears off,

It's still there.

You're still left with you.

I went into this new relationship, everything that I could have wanted, and I was absolutely petrified.

Yeah.

Petrified.

Because it was everything you ever wanted?

Because my nervous system had never had that feeling of safety with another person, so I didn't totally trust it.

And we kind of grew up with this, you know, our mum was very independent, had to earn her own money.

Yeah.

And she taught us very clearly, earn your own money, never trust a man, make sure you own your own flat or house and this is how you do it.