Nadia

I'm like, every other part of my life is good.

I'm not waiting for this bit to happen.

So I was able to talk to her and, you know, just little things like I'd been with him for a couple of months.

Like, he hasn't told me that he loves me yet.

I'm like, I don't know how much longer I can just hang around and wait for this.

You know, I've kind of walked out of my life a bit here.

And she went, OK, does he do anything for you?

And I'm like, well, yeah, he makes my coffee and he really takes care with how he makes my coffee exactly like.

And she goes, OK, that's love.

And I went, oh, okay.

And then I started to see it differently.

Everywhere.

It wasn't just these words, you know, it was like, it was action.

Yeah.

And it really took time for me to feel, you know, I always had this thing where I'm like, what if he just finds out that I'm not as cool as he thinks I am, you know, or I'm not as calm as he thinks I am or I'm not as anything.

You know, I kept thinking I was going to get found out.

Even waking up in the morning.

As myself with just, you know, not that I wear much makeup anyway, but I don't know.

It was quite exposing for me to really have someone looking at me first thing in the morning.

And it just took practice and awareness and catching myself writing in journals, going for walks.