Natalie Joy

And there were some outside influences.

One, the show had kind of broken with the Daily Mail and there were some negative things and I started getting anxious.

And the other thing was we went to get drinks with his sister and another one of our cast members.

And they really made me feel very uncomfortable about my age.

God, I didn't expect to get emotional.

Who made you feel uncomfortable?

His sister and the other cast member?

Yeah.

Yeah, I just felt like they were really sort of, like, focusing on their ages.

And I felt really kind of, like, left out of conversations.

It almost felt, like, purposeful in some ways that, like, they were really trying to, like, make me feel old.

And I tried to keep my cool and...

I just couldn't handle it.

So I, we were supposed to go out to dinner and I actually like felt sick.

So I went back to the hotel and that was when I really like broke down and, um, I had texted John and told him, you know, I was really upset and everything.

And, you know, his initial response was, you know, very supportive and that we were going to talk when he got back.

And I just kind of tumbleweeded in my feelings.

And, um,

I just couldn't get my head back to where it was before.

And the next morning he and I tried to have a conversation and I tried to, you know, I was very emotional and tried to express what was going on inside of me.