Neil Adams

And then I was – and I think that some of that was the fact that I was, you know, kind of – I wasn't drinking all the time, but I was drinking in excess at the wrong times, you know. And I think that that's what a lot of people do sometimes is that – They use it for the wrong reasons, you know, and I used to hear it.

And then I was – and I think that some of that was the fact that I was, you know, kind of – I wasn't drinking all the time, but I was drinking in excess at the wrong times, you know. And I think that that's what a lot of people do sometimes is that – They use it for the wrong reasons, you know, and I used to hear it.

I hear it now all the time, you know, and it's that, you know, I need to knock the edge off and I need to just forget. And I need to, you know, and you need to be in a fuzzy place for a while. And I had a lot of time in a fuzzy place and I needed to get rid of that, you know, and I needed to clear my head.

I hear it now all the time, you know, and it's that, you know, I need to knock the edge off and I need to just forget. And I need to, you know, and you need to be in a fuzzy place for a while. And I had a lot of time in a fuzzy place and I needed to get rid of that, you know, and I needed to clear my head.

I hear it now all the time, you know, and it's that, you know, I need to knock the edge off and I need to just forget. And I need to, you know, and you need to be in a fuzzy place for a while. And I had a lot of time in a fuzzy place and I needed to get rid of that, you know, and I needed to clear my head.

I think, you know, definitely, you know, the fact that my marriage, first marriage didn't work, you know, and that was, you know, it's a mix of things that, you know, between us and, and then, you know, so that's not where I wanted to be at the time. And yeah, the effects that it had on my son. And it took a long time for him then to come around and to trust me again, you know, and to have belief.

I think, you know, definitely, you know, the fact that my marriage, first marriage didn't work, you know, and that was, you know, it's a mix of things that, you know, between us and, and then, you know, so that's not where I wanted to be at the time. And yeah, the effects that it had on my son. And it took a long time for him then to come around and to trust me again, you know, and to have belief.

I think, you know, definitely, you know, the fact that my marriage, first marriage didn't work, you know, and that was, you know, it's a mix of things that, you know, between us and, and then, you know, so that's not where I wanted to be at the time. And yeah, the effects that it had on my son. And it took a long time for him then to come around and to trust me again, you know, and to have belief.

He always had belief in me, but to trust me again. And then I think that that was low. And I think that, you know, when I look back, is that a lot of my bad decisions were when I was in that fuzzy kind of haze and that it got progressively worse. That got progressively worse to the degree where it was, you know, trying to hide it and trying to hide how much.

He always had belief in me, but to trust me again. And then I think that that was low. And I think that, you know, when I look back, is that a lot of my bad decisions were when I was in that fuzzy kind of haze and that it got progressively worse. That got progressively worse to the degree where it was, you know, trying to hide it and trying to hide how much.

He always had belief in me, but to trust me again. And then I think that that was low. And I think that, you know, when I look back, is that a lot of my bad decisions were when I was in that fuzzy kind of haze and that it got progressively worse. That got progressively worse to the degree where it was, you know, trying to hide it and trying to hide how much.

And I was kind of a functioning kind of drunk. You know, I think you could probably say that. And, you know, I was functioning. I was still able to – I was still training most days. crazily enough, you know, I was training to kind of mask it and cover it. And that was probably my savior that I was still, you know, because I remember I said to my wife, I said to Nikki, I'm probably the fittest.

And I was kind of a functioning kind of drunk. You know, I think you could probably say that. And, you know, I was functioning. I was still able to – I was still training most days. crazily enough, you know, I was training to kind of mask it and cover it. And that was probably my savior that I was still, you know, because I remember I said to my wife, I said to Nikki, I'm probably the fittest.

And I was kind of a functioning kind of drunk. You know, I think you could probably say that. And, you know, I was functioning. I was still able to – I was still training most days. crazily enough, you know, I was training to kind of mask it and cover it. And that was probably my savior that I was still, you know, because I remember I said to my wife, I said to Nikki, I'm probably the fittest.

If I'm, you know, a drunk, then I'm a fittest drunk in the world. She said, yeah, you probably are actually, you know, I was in great condition for a drunk.

If I'm, you know, a drunk, then I'm a fittest drunk in the world. She said, yeah, you probably are actually, you know, I was in great condition for a drunk.

If I'm, you know, a drunk, then I'm a fittest drunk in the world. She said, yeah, you probably are actually, you know, I was in great condition for a drunk.

I had periods of depression. I can honestly say that my depression wasn't that bad. Although I did, you know, when it's like anything that gives you an up, you know, it gives you an even bigger down, doesn't it? You know, and so I hated that feeling and also hated myself for letting it happen because I have got this really bizarre feeling

I had periods of depression. I can honestly say that my depression wasn't that bad. Although I did, you know, when it's like anything that gives you an up, you know, it gives you an even bigger down, doesn't it? You know, and so I hated that feeling and also hated myself for letting it happen because I have got this really bizarre feeling

I had periods of depression. I can honestly say that my depression wasn't that bad. Although I did, you know, when it's like anything that gives you an up, you know, it gives you an even bigger down, doesn't it? You know, and so I hated that feeling and also hated myself for letting it happen because I have got this really bizarre feeling