Nick Jonas

So when I reflected, this was when I first started doing therapy in my early 20s, on kind of the way in which I handled living with this disease, I became very critical of

how serious I was taking it or even the opposite end of that spectrum, which is, am I taking it too seriously?

You know, at that time there was, there's a lot of,

a lot of noise made about it because I was sort of the only public person talking about type one in this way as an advocate.

And I became really discouraged by some of the feedback.

This was the first time I recall feeling, and I'm going to use a big word here and I don't mean for it to sound so intense, but feeling betrayed by people in the sense that

I wanted to just be a normal kid like everybody else and not be dealing with this thing.

I wasn't trying to make a meal out of it.

I'm just sharing my truth about this.

And it was made to feel like, oh, he's making too big a deal.

And it's not that serious.

And so I became very critical of everything I was doing in that sense, whether I was doing enough to manage it or not enough.

And then later on in my life, I was met with a situation where I really kind of fell flat on my face.

Not literally, but that would have been better, actually, than what happened.

But I had a TV performance where this guitar solo moment that I was supposed to play as a feature on a Kelsey Ballerini track just didn't happen.

I went blank.

I hit a bad note, and then I couldn't recover.

And I built up this...

this skyscraper of, you know, this, this idea that music and being a musician was my whole identity.

And it was, it was unimaginable how, how important that was to me for that skyscraper to stay standing and, and, and not have any cracks in it or anything.