Nick Middaugh
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Um, yeah, I ended up giving him a letter and, um, had him read it. And, um, we had a conversation. It was, uh, it was rough because as I, as I got older, like going into adulthood, um, Because, you know, as a little kid, I had this fear of people finding out because I thought I wouldn't be loved. I thought I wouldn't have a family, like all that stuff.
Um, yeah, I ended up giving him a letter and, um, had him read it. And, um, we had a conversation. It was, uh, it was rough because as I, as I got older, like going into adulthood, um, Because, you know, as a little kid, I had this fear of people finding out because I thought I wouldn't be loved. I thought I wouldn't have a family, like all that stuff.
Well, those fears evolved into, at some point, like, I don't want to hurt my mom and dad with this coming to them years and years later. And I realize now that that fear is, you know, silly, but that's, as an abuse survivor, that's kind of like some of the stuff you think about is what keeps you reticent. at one point I decided like, I'm just going to live with this.
Well, those fears evolved into, at some point, like, I don't want to hurt my mom and dad with this coming to them years and years later. And I realize now that that fear is, you know, silly, but that's, as an abuse survivor, that's kind of like some of the stuff you think about is what keeps you reticent. at one point I decided like, I'm just going to live with this.
Well, those fears evolved into, at some point, like, I don't want to hurt my mom and dad with this coming to them years and years later. And I realize now that that fear is, you know, silly, but that's, as an abuse survivor, that's kind of like some of the stuff you think about is what keeps you reticent. at one point I decided like, I'm just going to live with this.
I'll just take you to the grave. Like, I don't have to tell anybody.
I'll just take you to the grave. Like, I don't have to tell anybody.
I'll just take you to the grave. Like, I don't have to tell anybody.
Would you have wanted your kids to do that? No, no. And I think that's also part of what is a motivator. First kid was born when I was 21.
Would you have wanted your kids to do that? No, no. And I think that's also part of what is a motivator. First kid was born when I was 21.
Would you have wanted your kids to do that? No, no. And I think that's also part of what is a motivator. First kid was born when I was 21.
Right. Well, and that's the thing too, is looking back, like, So my daughter's about to turn two. And we have three kids. They're awesome. I love them to death.
Right. Well, and that's the thing too, is looking back, like, So my daughter's about to turn two. And we have three kids. They're awesome. I love them to death.
Right. Well, and that's the thing too, is looking back, like, So my daughter's about to turn two. And we have three kids. They're awesome. I love them to death.