Olivia Munn

And I wasn't able to make a lot of breast milk.

I really tried and my son was struggling because I was not giving him any nourishment.

And it was so...

And so I was like, I'm just stopping.

I'm going to put him on formula.

He's going to be okay.

But by stopping cold turkey like that, I didn't know, even if I made a little bit, what happens is your hormones drop and everything.

Like I had, I was not prepared for that.

So then it just, it just dropped me into like the depths of postpartum hell.

And I was spiraling.

And then I ended up getting, people would ask me like, what were your thoughts?

Well, the thing is, I didn't have thoughts.

Thank God I didn't have any thoughts of self-harm or hurting anyone else.

My heart goes out to every woman who's experiencing that.

And there's not enough sympathy and empathy and understanding for that.

It's absolutely horrifying to feel those things, I can imagine.

So that was a big part of the reason why I was like, okay, I need to take some time away.

But I wasn't thinking about that yet.

Right when I was getting out of that postpartum haze, I was like, I'm feeling good.

Then I get diagnosed with breast cancer.