Olivia

And my character was Love and I was paired with another woman.

He would make me and this other woman go to these emotional heights over the period of like two hours.

He would come by and watch our scenes and we would be doing the same scene over and over.

And we just didn't understand that what we were being asked to do wasn't safe.

It was this exploitation of these horrific, dark experiences in our lives.

He would ask about horrible things that had happened to us or ask us to imagine terrible things and then

We would do the scene.

It just made it really difficult to get away from that anytime that we wanted to act.

And it's part of the reason that I don't act anymore at all.

I totally changed careers a couple years after I graduated.

It was really traumatizing, honestly.

And also, it's not like...

Real acting, in my opinion, when we would work with other directors, they had a hard time coaching us because we were so used to just this emotionally intense situation.

Getting away from that intensity and having somebody just give you direction was not something that was easy for us after that.

And it was the only thing that we wanted to do at the same time because it felt like, okay, this is real acting.

It's what's making us vulnerable on stage.

If you were called a Kato baby, it was known that you were intense and you were like hardcore.

And that's a lot to carry as like an 18, 19 year old.

It just was different than what all of our other peers were experiencing too.

Like my husband, he was in the program with us and his experience was so different than mine because he connected with a different director and he got to do fun projects where he was encouraged and given confidence.