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And by the way, I've been to that house since, they know who I am.

But the thing that really stopped me, and I hadn't gone through the transformation and the work and the discussion and the revelations I've had since,

But I thought at the time, if my mum finds this, I'm a 37-year-old man with two dependent children.

I will never be able to live with the shame.

So I remember having to hurry, thinking, what am I going to do?

And I remember, like, he's going to kill me because I have to mention him.

My best mate, my son's godfather, I was seeing him at the pub that afternoon.

So I got the stash and I remember telling him he had a van.

And I said...

mate, can you take this please?

He said, yeah, sure.

What is it?

I was like, it's my stash.

You need to destroy it.

You need to get rid of it.

I can't do it because of the shame.

He was like, mate, just put it in the bin.

I can't put it in the bin.

Imagine if somebody sees me putting this in the bin and goes, like it was, it was even as a fully grown adult.

who was, you know, this is 20 years before.