Paige

He is hanging out with friends at work more recently and he's having fun with that.

So I'm really actually very happy for him.

But the thing that sucks is that I feel bad because when he leaves, I'm so happy if I know that I'm coming home from work and no one's going to be at our apartment.

And that's been my more recent epiphany.

Like, oh shit, I probably shouldn't be in a relationship because like...

Well, like when we were still in college, like I was so like, I can totally marry this dude.

Like I love his family, like really love him.

Like we're so good.

Well, so that's how I am.

That's the thing.

So I've always been super independent and I'm like, I don't want to have kids until I've done all the shit that I want to do.

Like his parents got married super young.

His mom's like, she's sweet, but she's just like a housewife.

So she doesn't, which is being a mom is a full-time job, very hard, but she doesn't have her own like things going on.

So she'd always been super involved in her kids' lives, which is great.

But sometimes it gets to a certain extent where it's a little bit helicopter parent and she's like that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I guess to rephrase, I am not ready to not be selfish is like my thing.

Like I want to be selfish for as long as possible because I like what I got going on, but.