Patrick Foster

That'd be his last memory.

So I'd send him a message.

He didn't reply.

I was sort of so all over the place, mind so scrambled, self-esteem so low.

I thought, well, that's the confirmation I need.

He wants me to do it as well.

But of course he was trying to work out what on earth to say.

Unfortunately for me, a minute later, he sent me a message.

not knowing exactly where I was or the gravity of the situation, responded in a way that only he would, that was so simple, but it saved my life because it finally made me think about other people, not just myself.

He basically said, look, I don't understand what can be this bad, but we all know you're struggling with something.

But he said, you're going to have to talk to us.

He said, you're going to have to open up, be honest, and we will support you.

And that's ultimately all I needed to hear.

Didn't do what I was about to do, the best decision I've ever made.

Took myself home.

Came clean, was honest with people, and the rest is history.

Yeah, I mean, I can't remember the exact message, but it was something along the lines of, look, I just can't do this anymore.

I don't want to be here.

I've done stuff that I shouldn't have done and I don't see a way out.

And...