Patrick Foster

Greed is probably the word I'd use when it came to money.

I expected to be really rich and have loads of money because I'd always been around people that did and sort of probably expected it to just...

land on my feet as well, which obviously is not the case for most people.

Yeah, I mean, a combination of injury, sort of bad lifestyle and ultimately not being good enough.

I mean, when I was younger, I was sort of very high achieving, pretty successful player.

And I guess one of the mistakes that I made along with lots of other things is when it came to my sort of cricket career,

Because I was so good when I was younger.

I just assumed that I'd always be a professional cricketer and that's what I'd do and that whilst I'd have to work reasonably hard at it, that was just what I was going to do.

But actually the world of professional sport is so cutthroat, it's so competitive and there are so many people that are so good that actually...

Then when I was sort of graduated, so to speak, from like the academy to the professional game, I started to get found out and I found that very difficult.

Then I had an injury, which is difficult for anybody who likes playing sport because you can't do what you love.

But as a professional athlete, it's even more difficult and came with loads of spare time that I didn't really know what to do with, how to deal with, and obviously spent a lot of that gambling.

It would be really easy for me to sit here and say my professional cricket career didn't work out because of gambling or because I got injured.

It wasn't.

It was ultimately because I wasn't good enough.

But I didn't give myself the best opportunity to have a successful career because of my inability to kind of deal with...

difficulties, setbacks, time, injury, all those things.

And I got found out ultimately.

Yeah, I mean, I think that moment hit me so hard.

And again, I underestimate it at the time.