Patton Oswalt

We'd just lie there and just talk in the dark and go about our day. And go over our day and go over the world. And it was just... And then that, without it becoming romantic or anything, it then became romantic. Just having someone to talk to and then it turned into... And then we finally... God, I don't, we didn't meet face to face till May 20th.

And we started talking, texting on Facebook at the end of February. And it was just, and there was a time where like, maybe we just should never meet. Let's just talk like this. And then we was like, oh no, we should meet. And then that's just how it went.

And we started talking, texting on Facebook at the end of February. And it was just, and there was a time where like, maybe we just should never meet. Let's just talk like this. And then we was like, oh no, we should meet. And then that's just how it went.

Yeah, you hide the terror in front of your kid. Your kid can't see you crying and having panic attacks. So it was very much like a performance of getting up, making sure her breakfast is made, lay out her clothes the night before, get her to school. She immediately wanted to go back to school because she wanted normalcy. I understand that. And my counselor was like,

Yeah, you hide the terror in front of your kid. Your kid can't see you crying and having panic attacks. So it was very much like a performance of getting up, making sure her breakfast is made, lay out her clothes the night before, get her to school. She immediately wanted to go back to school because she wanted normalcy. I understand that. And my counselor was like,

Whatever she wants, let her lead the way. If she doesn't want to go back to school for three months, she just shouldn't go back to school. If she wants to go back Monday morning, take her back to school. So it was very much like me. And then I would drop her off at her school and then I would park on the street outside the school and just sit there until three o'clock.

Whatever she wants, let her lead the way. If she doesn't want to go back to school for three months, she just shouldn't go back to school. If she wants to go back Monday morning, take her back to school. So it was very much like me. And then I would drop her off at her school and then I would park on the street outside the school and just sit there until three o'clock.

just sitting there crying or just freaking out or just listening to music and just being in terror. But like, well, this is mitigating the terror because I'm within arm's reach of her and if anything happens, they can run right in. Like for like a month, that's what I did. That was my day. I would just park and just sit.

just sitting there crying or just freaking out or just listening to music and just being in terror. But like, well, this is mitigating the terror because I'm within arm's reach of her and if anything happens, they can run right in. Like for like a month, that's what I did. That was my day. I would just park and just sit.

That the whole world was death now, that everyone I loved was going to die. that everyone I loved was gonna die, that she was gonna die, that my parents were gonna die, that my friends were gonna die.

That the whole world was death now, that everyone I loved was going to die. that everyone I loved was gonna die, that she was gonna die, that my parents were gonna die, that my friends were gonna die.

It just felt like if this person who was so extraordinary and so much brighter and so much more in the world than anyone else I had encountered in the world, if they could be taken away, then nobody was safe. Everything was... just teetering on a precipice, and I was powerless to stop anyone from being taken away. So that's what the terror felt like to me.

It just felt like if this person who was so extraordinary and so much brighter and so much more in the world than anyone else I had encountered in the world, if they could be taken away, then nobody was safe. Everything was... just teetering on a precipice, and I was powerless to stop anyone from being taken away. So that's what the terror felt like to me.

But how comforted would I have been if I believed in a loving and beneficent God and then this thing had happened? Would I have been in even more terror? Would I have been in even more existential shock and doubt? Maybe the atheism saved me. Because also, you know, Michelle's whole thing was she hated the phrase, everything happens for a reason.

But how comforted would I have been if I believed in a loving and beneficent God and then this thing had happened? Would I have been in even more terror? Would I have been in even more existential shock and doubt? Maybe the atheism saved me. Because also, you know, Michelle's whole thing was she hated the phrase, everything happens for a reason.

Now, she had studied and researched crime long enough to go, things happen for no frigging reason. And it was her phrase, and I said it in my special, it's chaos, be kind. And there's days where I fail at that, but try to keep reminding yourself of that and try your best to be kind in the chaos.

Now, she had studied and researched crime long enough to go, things happen for no frigging reason. And it was her phrase, and I said it in my special, it's chaos, be kind. And there's days where I fail at that, but try to keep reminding yourself of that and try your best to be kind in the chaos.

A lot of my drive and, like, multi-pronged ambition went away. It was more about let's focus on just a few things that really matter to you. So I really want to get into, like, making films. I'll always do stand-up. I'm just not always the guy that's like, oh, I'll eventually stop.

A lot of my drive and, like, multi-pronged ambition went away. It was more about let's focus on just a few things that really matter to you. So I really want to get into, like, making films. I'll always do stand-up. I'm just not always the guy that's like, oh, I'll eventually stop.

And then if I'm lucky enough to get to keep acting in things, interesting things, I'll act when that comes along, but it won't be anything that I'm going to, like – pursue in that crazy way. I just like doing interesting little films. The film industry seems to be going through a very weird spasm right now, which I think is a good spasm.