Paul Capsis

So it still kept going, this thing.

The problem was my voice and I sounded female and I was called this thing called a pufta.

I didn't even know what that was.

I had no idea.

about any of that.

And that's another thing about the public school.

I was so protected or naive by my Maltese family, my Greek family, I didn't even know any of that stuff, sex.

I didn't know anything about sex because I was a kid and didn't know.

But I found out at that school on the playground.

And then I found out, you know, I was different and that I was strange.

And I remember going home

and turning on the light and looking in the mirror, in my grandmother's mirror, and I would be looking for this thing that they all saw.

I was trying to see it in the mirror.

And I remember distinctly just studying my face, my hair, and I'd be looking at myself

in the mirror for a long time trying to find what it was that made me so hated at school.

And all I saw was this plane.

I saw myself as plane.

I just thought, I don't even have an interesting nose.

Back then.

Of course, the nose kept growing as I got older.