Perrie Edwards

It's, I don't know, it's just different.

No way to have a miscarriage is easy.

If it happens at the beginning, it's not easier than it happening further down the line.

It's just not nice in general, is it?

And I think having to give birth to a child that you can't take home.

I think it just... There's not really anything you can say to make it easier.

I don't think anything really necessarily helps, but I think for me, I'm in a position where I've been through it twice, but I've also got two children.

So it's like...

I can't even imagine what it must be like for the women who go through what I went through and still don't have a baby.

Do you know what I mean?

And it took me a while to want to go again.

And I always knew I wanted more children than just one.

I always knew I wanted Axel to have siblings, whether two or three or whatever.

But I just didn't have it in me to get pregnant again.

Like I was just terrified.

I thought it's probably best to just leave it.

So that's why there's such a big gap now between like Axel and Alanis.

It's not a huge gap, but it's not the gap I wanted, you know.

But it took me a lot to get over what happened to try again.

And I think especially after what happened with Ace,