Phoebe

I think we were all starting to get on each other's nerves having been locked all in the house together for so long that we just wanted to kind of get away from each other.

And something I was doing a lot at this time that I've kind of always done is when I'm feeling too emotional or anxious, I can't sleep.

I've always struggled with sleep.

And so what I will do is get in my car and just drive aimlessly around the

and just put on music, and usually sad music so I can cry.

Because sometimes to get these emotions out, instead of just laying in bed and trying to pretend that everything's okay, I can just go in the comfort of my own car, put on my sad music and cry.

This night, I'm laying in bed and I'm just keep thinking about all of these things that I have going on with me and my family and all these personal things.

I'm feeling really anxious about facing the day tomorrow.

I just feel like I

I don't want to, I just have this anxiety in my heart and I can't sleep once again.

And I keep laying there trying to, and finally I realized I'm not gonna be able to sleep.

So to get all of this energy out, I'm gonna get in my car, I'm gonna put on my sad music and I'm gonna just drive around in the neighborhood.

This was probably around midnight.

I usually would wait until I knew

that everybody else in the house was asleep, or at least hope everyone else in the house was asleep so I wouldn't wake them up, or I wouldn't bother them by leaving and shutting the door.

My dog at the time was really mellow, so I would leave her behind and she would just sleep in my bed.

But I wanted to make sure there weren't other people wandering around the house so she would poke her head up and try to get out of my bedroom.

So it was probably around midnight.

I get into my car and I put on my sad girl playlist, driving around aimlessly.

I know these neighborhoods really well.