Poh Ling Yeow

So I kind of respect it in some ways as well.

And I do feel like there is some value in religiosity and because we don't have it anymore.

We have found it in other extreme ways that aren't healthy either.

So there's something about

I think the community of it.

yeah it's instant you know you find this whole group of people that have that you feel safe with because they you know you know explicitly that they have shared values and obviously there's you know varying degrees of how people you know then like behave but for the most part you're not dealing with so many variables you're dealing with very few variables.

Yeah, I think because my mind hadn't... I'd grown up wanting...

I'd always felt like an outsider.

I was always looking for environments where I felt accepted.

And I think my mind was so... I guess my life experience was so narrow.

And I'm even willing to say that had I done that, I would have not fulfilled my potential like I have.

But maybe...

I would have been happy because my brain would have, I would have stayed in that environment and not been encouraged to think outside of it.

But I'm glad that I managed to get myself out of it.

And I've lived a much more fulfilling life.

And I've definitely feel like, you know, I've really sucked the marrow out of.

And I think had I been in that situation, I would have turned out a totally different person, I think, which is a wild thing to consider.

Yeah.

But do you know what I mean?

It's almost like I always say it's like a pendulum.