Róisín Ingle

yeah I mean I suppose she would probably say the day my father died I think Edith would say that I actually spoke to Edith about my father she told me she told me very clearly that I had to go and I've never visited my father's grave and she told me to go there and basically lie on the grave and cry and be with my father yeah she told me I hadn't processed things and I hadn't I mean this is all without me even talking to her very much I just was asking her what she felt from we were having a kind of a

just a deep chat and she said that to me and I never did it actually that's terrible isn't it imagine ignoring Edith Eager's wise advice but maybe I will do it but probably that if from I'd say Edith Eager would say that on the day my dad died and the day well the day I realised that he'd killed himself

That was a big shock.

And that was a big, the world changed, everything tilted, you know.

I don't think I even knew that people did that or that was a possibility.

And I didn't believe it for ages.

And then I had to believe it, you know.

Yeah, it was a bit of it.

It was not a nice way to hear.

Not that there's any nice way to hear, but he'd been slagged.

Someone had taunted him to tell him that his father was going to... He'd run in saying to my mum, oh, you know, daddy killed himself.

And then I was like typical Michael.

He's bullshitting and whatever.

And my mum said, no, it's true.

And that was a big revelation.

Was it or... I think it was.

I mean, it was definitely did not feel like something you were going to be telling people.

And I know that some people in my family would have not ever told anyone for a very long time, you know.

Can't speak for them, but I have that impression that that's the case.

And I remember when I went to school that morning, when... Well, the morning he died.