Retz Chapman

Kind of just like dolphins walking on land and elephants with wings and just really off the wall things.

It was very comparable to an intense dream.

It was almost like

like visions and downloads of my life going through my peripheral vision.

And I could almost like drive the experience.

Like I could kind of take control and I would see one vision.

And when I was done with that, I would be like, okay, now let's take me to the next one.

Like a movie reel of memories going through my vision.

Oh, no.

It was memories that I deeply tucked under the rug my whole life.

And once I hit about the eight hour mark,

That's when it really got intense and that's when I started vomiting and got real nauseous and was honestly wanting it to end.

Mm.

After this experience, after revisiting that memory, I kind of forgave myself and that person, right?

to where there was no more shame and guilt attached to that memory.

I came out of there just so happy, and I felt like I wouldn't want to trade my life with anyone else's.

Yeah, I mean, it all dissipated like it was non-existent.

It was just magical.

I didn't want to do anything.

Like Advil repulsed me.