Richard Feidler

you know stupid but I still had that in my house in my little bed sit and the speed that I was on I'd become very very paranoid and I was starting to get scared because they kept mentioning my family and I got really really scared and I felt whether it was paranoid or not I've someone was following me and I just thought I've got to get out of here or else I'm going to get done

And so I went to the police and I squealed on this guy and I said, you don't touch him until I get out of the country.

And they didn't touch him until I got out of that country.

So that last month that I was in England, my sister lent me the money to get here.

Yeah, back to Australia.

I was so paranoid.

And then I was to learn actually he did get caught because I went back to try and make amends of sorts to some of the people that I treated so badly, you know, just with my behaviour.

And that organisation was still going.

And that's when I learned he'd hung himself in jail.

So I, you know, I can't regret it.

But that's the kind of insane world that so many people get caught up in.

And that could have been me.

He was offering me heroin like in a needle now.

And I knew that if I didn't leave, if I stay here, that's what's going to happen to me.

I had to get out.

No.

Well, no, there's nothing straight and narrow about me.

No.

So yes, I decided I'd had enough.

I was still smoking dope though, but I landed, I got in with a household in Glebe near Wentworth Park.