Richard Gadd

Masculinity creates wars.

Femininity doesn't create wars.

What women do we know who created wars, invaded other countries?

Well, Thatcher in Argentina.

Yeah, it was a case of kind of do or die almost.

I know that sounds extreme, but it's the truth.

I couldn't keep it in anymore.

I was done thinking about it.

I think I believed, maybe naively, that I could think my way out of it, that I could sort of land on a thought or a sense of clarity on my own.

But I would just be synaptically firing the kind of doubts and thoughts around my head to the point where they actually got greater and greater and greater and...

it just got to a point where i just felt like i was done and i i think i told my mom first maybe one of my friends and it was like always painful i always remember like the adrenaline was kind of unbelievable um but then you would always feel like a weight had been lifted you know uh and um

and then I suppose meanwhile I was going up to the Edinburgh Fringe and all of this stuff and I was putting on wigs and wearing daft teeth and doing anti-jokes and doing these kind of really madcap jokes that were wacky humour but meanwhile I was sort of dying inside and it was just this juxtaposition you almost can't write it it's what Baby Rain is all about the kind of sad clown thing but

It was like that to the extreme.

I was going through all that, trying to come to terms with all that, while simultaneously going on stage and trying to make people laugh in the most kind of wacky way.

I felt sorry for her.

That's the first feeling I felt.

It's a patronising, arrogant feeling, feeling sorry for someone you've only just laid eyes on.

But I did.

I felt sorry for her.

Fiver, please, mate.