Rivkah Reyes

Yeah, and I'm sure all of the other fun chaos that comes with before sobriety and the after sobriety.

I identify as a recovering drug addict and an alcoholic.

To be fully honest, my story isn't all that exciting.

The what it was like of my story isn't too, too insane.

It was just really the way I felt.

I used to drink and do all the drugs and whatever that I did to...

basically just like avoid my feelings you know I was I was sexualized as a child um after being kind of thrust into the public eye at 10 years old and growing up gay and growing up in a school where I was bullied and and so let's unpack a little bit yeah when did you realize that you were gay

I started having little inklings when I was on set for School of Rock.

My little morning ritual was that I would watch music videos in my hotel.

And when I first saw the tattoo music video for all the things she said, I was like, girl's kissing.

And then I went down a rabbit hole.

And Avril Lavigne was just getting popular.

I was just like, I don't know if I want to be her or if I want to kiss her like the girls in the tattoo music video.

I was like, if girls can kiss, that must mean it's OK.

I didn't like formally like come out until college, but I was like kissing and hooking up with girls in high school.

When I would drink, I got the nickname the two beer queer because I would drink two beers and then I'd be like, should we kiss to my girlfriends?

And be like, oh, my God.

Yeah.

And so there was this, like, thing in me where I was like, oh, it's because when I drink, it makes me kiss girls.

And so I struggled a little bit with it where I was just like, okay, so I can't get too turnt because then I'm going to kiss girls.