Rivkah Reyes

triggered the alcoholism but I did drink it and I felt this like sense of ease that I really didn't and I was just like you know what like the Olsen twins are here I'm gonna go talk to them which I didn't have before I had that little baby glass of champagne in me and then for the rest of the night I was like sneaking sips of people's drinks off of random tables which the other kids weren't doing that certainly but I was and

Right.

Over the years as it progressed, which I drank and smoked weed pretty heavily from when I was a junior in high school until I was 24.

So not that long of a time, but it went from like, ha ha, look, give her two beers and she's going to kiss a girl to like, I was smoking crack.

Like, and not like, not like out of a crack pipe or anything, but I would like dip cigarettes in Coke and then smoke them, which is crack.

I mean, I first saw somebody doing cocaine when I was 10 years old.

We were at some bar in New York and I like walked in to a bathroom that this girl had left unlocked and she was just like,

bumping like doing a line yeah and I was just like oh my god what are you doing and she was just like it's my medicine I'm diabetic and I was just like okay and I like asked my mom I was like do people typically put medication in their nose and she was like what oh no and she kind of just was like you know didn't know what to do with that information yeah you were just exposed

Yeah, I was just exposed to it super early.

I mean, at one of the premieres for School of Rock, I remember Stevo was there, and Kid Rock, and Sheryl Crow, and the Osbournes.

And it was a lot of just rock star energy to be around for a 10-year-old kid.

And of course, I want...

I still want it.

I still love being a rock star and a movie star and a gay icon.

But now I'm like, all right, how do we do that without ruining our nasal passages and our lives and our relationships and blowing up everything around me?

Because that's what it led to.

The crack thing is kind of hilarious, in my opinion.

It's serious.

I can laugh at it because now I'm like eight years older.

distance from it but I'm able to look at it and laugh at it because like why shouldn't I laugh like I've gone to hell and back like as an addict and a person who's like in recovery I don't know I like smoked weed every day to be able to deal with my anxiety but then when I was a little too like