Ronnie

I left Beaumont after 11 days.

I had a walk-in frame and I had a walk-in stick as well.

And I was on a huge amount of OxyContin

oxynorm and diazepam and even with all of that I was in severe agony and I could do nothing for myself absolutely nothing How did that feel to be suddenly so helpless?

It was devastating because I'm

very independent to the point that I annoyed people.

I'm told I won't accept help so you can imagine what it was like for me and I would be crying day in day out over the frustration and the depression as your previous caller had said.

It was just horrendous.

Now I'm not 100% better yet.

I'm still

The tiredness, the fatigue is horrendous and the depression is still there and the fear.

I am terrified because I got another kidney infection at Christmas time and I was straight to the doctor with it.

I was taking no chances.

But I'm terrified.

I'm terrified that it's going to come back.

I have very little forward bending.

I'm still sick.

suffering with that i still have quite a lot of pain and um and i'm hoping to go back to work soon because i feel i just have to get on with my life but that that that terror is to describe it um like how does that how does that impact you day to day the things you do or maybe the things you don't do

Well, I have to plan everything.

So if I was going out tonight, I wouldn't be able to do anything during the day because the fatigue would be so strong that I wouldn't be able to sustain the night out, let's say.