Rose

It's hard.

It's messy.

Yeah, yeah, absolutely.

And I also struggle with, should I tell them?

What does that mean?

Yeah, I know he told me it's more about the fantasy that he has seen a lot.

I'm struggling from watching porn from such a young age.

It's the fantasy side, not necessarily them as a person.

Yeah.

And we're super close, too.

So I have talked to him about possibly not coming.

But I also tell him I'm really scared that when I see them, I'm probably going to break down crying because we are so close and they're going to be like, what the heck?

And so I fear that it might come to light.

But I also not giving him that he doesn't deserve for it to come to light if it hurts me that bad.

But also I want to, like, prioritize our marriage.

And I know that some things won't be helpful to one of the sisters that's also struggling with like her own mental health stuff right now.

I think it's just because I'm so close with them and we kind of share everything about our lives and we've walked through a lot.

from childhood with our mom.

She was pretty emotionally and mentally abusive and physically abusive towards the older kids.

And so I think there's just been like a huge amount of transparency between all of us sisters.