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That's kind of how I feel.

I'm thinking like, I really hope it's like goes off without a hitch this time, like kind of situation.

Okay, yeah.

Yeah, I'm a planner and a control freak, so that makes sense.

I need to go with the flow, I guess, to the best of my ability.

Yeah, you just described my ex in like one sentence, like great sex, great chemistry, very like romantic dates.

But when it came to like communication and speaking my feelings, it was like invalidating my feelings and all the toxic cycles.

I said that, I said that out loud to one of my friends.

Yeah, that was really helpful.

I think he just validated that it's okay for things to get boring and just kind of see where it goes and play it out.

And I will talk to him about slowing things down.

It's actually the opposite.

I've spoken up.

I don't hold things in.

I usually speak up so much, but it always gets shut down or invalidated.

I would bring things up to all my exes before, and I'd always communicate how I feel.

I'm not the type of girl that kind of just holds it in.

I try to communicate in the best, nicest way, and it would just get shut down or ignored or...

invalidated or what about that he would be like well what about my feelings and i'm like sure well can we get to yours after we discuss mine like that kind of situation so now that i have like i don't know a nice guy i don't know for some reason i'm like a little more scared to open up i guess i'm like scared of that happening again okay well try it out i don't know why well i mean well you know why because it hasn't you know because you have a history of it being disappointed when you try to express your feelings

Yeah.