Ruby Hall

Like it just felt like a lot of things that shouldn't have been hard just felt like they were manageable.

And that just, yeah, it just made a lot of things easier in my life.

Was there a moment where like it,

screwed something up for you?

I think there was a lot of times where I've acted pretty impulsively in my life.

I think there was sometimes I would just like, I would have an idea for something.

And before I had even thought about like how that idea would play out, I would just do it.

And then I would not really realize the sort of repercussions.

And it would be as simple as like sending the wrong email or reacting to something or just posting something online.

And it was just like I realized that I just wasn't having those things that sort of regulated the way I was acting.

And then there were some things that I really, really wanted to do and I just physically couldn't bring myself to being able to do them.

And I think the biggest difference I've thought about with being medicated is not even necessarily that like it's changed my life like massively in terms of like my life doesn't look completely different now.

I was very good at doing something different.

doing something to 80%, you know, like it's like I could do something and get it to a point where it was like 80% finished or it's like I think about a paint by numbers I tried to do.

Like I was so into it and I was so, so into it and then I got it like almost done and I thought, well, it's almost done.

I'll get to it eventually.

And that's sort of what I sort of had with most aspects of my life is that even when I was writing shows, I was like, oh, that's sort of like a placeholder joke.

I'll swap that out eventually.

It'll come out eventually.

And then when I was sort of three weeks into doing a show and it was still there, I was like, okay.