Ruby Wright

Did you think something was always going to happen?

So it was like she wanted you to find out without having to say it?

And you actually had to tell me.

I think, were you going to tell me together?

You were very angry with me quite rightly and I think up until that point we'd always had a very close relationship and your anger manifest itself mostly by you just refusing to see me.

I think it was just people were very shocked by what happened and I was very shocked and dad was very shocked.

Were you kind of surprised at yourself or were you surprised at the force of your own attraction and actions?

I am shocked now at how incredibly...

how selfishly I acted and how oblivious I was to your pain and George's pain and Ed's pain.

Almost like I deserved this thing.

I was on this sort of track and I was heading off on it.

Nothing was going to deter me.

But as I say, almost as if I deserved it, almost as if I was owed it.

I think in my fantasy world, I would have carried on having a passionate physical sexual relationship with Andrew and a kind of fond relationship with George, and the two would have somehow run together.

You know, I think some couples, through all their anger or hatred or battles, there's this sort of incredible...

that still comes back, you know, to your irritation.

You can't get rid of this sort of thing.

And I think with George, somehow, for me, the chemistry disappeared quite early on.

It got very complicated because George and Andrew, far from becoming rivals and kind of having a duel at dawn, far from George challenging Andrew to a duel at dawn, George kind of welcomed Andrew into the fold and Andrew became a kind of member of my family but without me there.

And there would be Sunday lunches and Saturday suppers and dances and Evershot and...