Ryan Blair

And then, you know, reconnecting to my faith and then growing and then attracting worldly things and ego things and then going back to my knees and

And then, you know, reconnecting to my faith and then growing and then attracting worldly things and ego things and then going back to my knees and

And then, you know, reconnecting to my faith and then growing and then attracting worldly things and ego things and then going back to my knees and

and then growing again and if you look at the trajectory of my life it's you know it looks like i went straight up from poverty but there was a lot of this it was a lot of a roller coaster ride and at 40 years old i said how do i get off of this roller coaster this constant need for crisis and suffering to grow and i went deep into my faith over a period of a you know two years where i did nothing but work on the internal and

and then growing again and if you look at the trajectory of my life it's you know it looks like i went straight up from poverty but there was a lot of this it was a lot of a roller coaster ride and at 40 years old i said how do i get off of this roller coaster this constant need for crisis and suffering to grow and i went deep into my faith over a period of a you know two years where i did nothing but work on the internal and

and then growing again and if you look at the trajectory of my life it's you know it looks like i went straight up from poverty but there was a lot of this it was a lot of a roller coaster ride and at 40 years old i said how do i get off of this roller coaster this constant need for crisis and suffering to grow and i went deep into my faith over a period of a you know two years where i did nothing but work on the internal and

And now having done two years worth of internal work, you know, my daily practice is connecting to my faith. In fact, I do my best to connect to my faith in everything that I do all day long.

And now having done two years worth of internal work, you know, my daily practice is connecting to my faith. In fact, I do my best to connect to my faith in everything that I do all day long.

And now having done two years worth of internal work, you know, my daily practice is connecting to my faith. In fact, I do my best to connect to my faith in everything that I do all day long.

Not everybody's gonna have picked up as much negativity and trauma and suffering as I had done. I pushed out my trauma and I thought success was going to heal me. So I thought, you know, yeah, I was abused. I was violated. I went through hell. I thought if I just win this award or if I make this next $10 million, or if I do this, then all of the pain inside of me will be healed.

Not everybody's gonna have picked up as much negativity and trauma and suffering as I had done. I pushed out my trauma and I thought success was going to heal me. So I thought, you know, yeah, I was abused. I was violated. I went through hell. I thought if I just win this award or if I make this next $10 million, or if I do this, then all of the pain inside of me will be healed.

Not everybody's gonna have picked up as much negativity and trauma and suffering as I had done. I pushed out my trauma and I thought success was going to heal me. So I thought, you know, yeah, I was abused. I was violated. I went through hell. I thought if I just win this award or if I make this next $10 million, or if I do this, then all of the pain inside of me will be healed.

And the best way to describe my energy was I was like a hurricane. I was just chasing success. Nothing mattered more than success in my life. And then I got success. And the more success I received, the more that the holes were amplified, the more that the salt came into the wound, so to speak. And so I realized the more successful I was, the less happier I was.

And the best way to describe my energy was I was like a hurricane. I was just chasing success. Nothing mattered more than success in my life. And then I got success. And the more success I received, the more that the holes were amplified, the more that the salt came into the wound, so to speak. And so I realized the more successful I was, the less happier I was.

And the best way to describe my energy was I was like a hurricane. I was just chasing success. Nothing mattered more than success in my life. And then I got success. And the more success I received, the more that the holes were amplified, the more that the salt came into the wound, so to speak. And so I realized the more successful I was, the less happier I was.

And the more I had to get the next dose of success to try to feel alive and try to feel worthy. And so the two-year journey that I went through, not everybody has to go through two years worth of isolation. And my full-time job was meditation, prayer, and reconnecting to my true spiritual self.

And the more I had to get the next dose of success to try to feel alive and try to feel worthy. And so the two-year journey that I went through, not everybody has to go through two years worth of isolation. And my full-time job was meditation, prayer, and reconnecting to my true spiritual self.

And the more I had to get the next dose of success to try to feel alive and try to feel worthy. And so the two-year journey that I went through, not everybody has to go through two years worth of isolation. And my full-time job was meditation, prayer, and reconnecting to my true spiritual self.

And that was because I'd picked up so much baggage, so much mud, that I had to cleanse my vessel for two years. Not everybody has to do that. But I had two years worth of hard work to do. Now, some people have more than two years worth of hard work, truthfully. And truthfully, I'm still doing the hard work to this day, but I don't have to do it in isolation on my own.

And that was because I'd picked up so much baggage, so much mud, that I had to cleanse my vessel for two years. Not everybody has to do that. But I had two years worth of hard work to do. Now, some people have more than two years worth of hard work, truthfully. And truthfully, I'm still doing the hard work to this day, but I don't have to do it in isolation on my own.