Ryan Blair

And anything in my heart that I had done that I recalled and remembered that was wrong to him, like one time I shot out all of his lamps in the backyard with my BB gun because I was mad at him. So I went and broke every lamp, like every light in the backyard got a BB in it. And I felt justified at the time, but I still offered that up. And now I'll tell you that I have so much love for my father.

And anything in my heart that I had done that I recalled and remembered that was wrong to him, like one time I shot out all of his lamps in the backyard with my BB gun because I was mad at him. So I went and broke every lamp, like every light in the backyard got a BB in it. And I felt justified at the time, but I still offered that up. And now I'll tell you that I have so much love for my father.

And anything in my heart that I had done that I recalled and remembered that was wrong to him, like one time I shot out all of his lamps in the backyard with my BB gun because I was mad at him. So I went and broke every lamp, like every light in the backyard got a BB in it. And I felt justified at the time, but I still offered that up. And now I'll tell you that I have so much love for my father.

I have a different perspective. I don't see him as a horrible person anymore. I just see him as for who he was. I connected even to the journey that he had prior to me that I wasn't a part of. I have a deep sense of what he went through. And so I have deep empathy for him and compassion for him. And I laugh with him. I hear his voice all the time. I connect to him.

I have a different perspective. I don't see him as a horrible person anymore. I just see him as for who he was. I connected even to the journey that he had prior to me that I wasn't a part of. I have a deep sense of what he went through. And so I have deep empathy for him and compassion for him. And I laugh with him. I hear his voice all the time. I connect to him.

I have a different perspective. I don't see him as a horrible person anymore. I just see him as for who he was. I connected even to the journey that he had prior to me that I wasn't a part of. I have a deep sense of what he went through. And so I have deep empathy for him and compassion for him. And I laugh with him. I hear his voice all the time. I connect to him.

And I have to tell you, it's been the most magical experience. Although he's not with me physically, spiritually, I feel my dad's guidance every step of the way. And I can't, even though there was a lot of bad stuff, I don't even focus on it anymore.

And I have to tell you, it's been the most magical experience. Although he's not with me physically, spiritually, I feel my dad's guidance every step of the way. And I can't, even though there was a lot of bad stuff, I don't even focus on it anymore.

And I have to tell you, it's been the most magical experience. Although he's not with me physically, spiritually, I feel my dad's guidance every step of the way. And I can't, even though there was a lot of bad stuff, I don't even focus on it anymore.

The bad stuff, to me, I just think it's like consequences of who he was and how my soul chose him because I needed the medicine that only he could give me. And as a result of the medicine he gave me, I get to be the father that I am today to my son, one that would never intentionally hit my son or harm my son or do anything like that to my son.

The bad stuff, to me, I just think it's like consequences of who he was and how my soul chose him because I needed the medicine that only he could give me. And as a result of the medicine he gave me, I get to be the father that I am today to my son, one that would never intentionally hit my son or harm my son or do anything like that to my son.

The bad stuff, to me, I just think it's like consequences of who he was and how my soul chose him because I needed the medicine that only he could give me. And as a result of the medicine he gave me, I get to be the father that I am today to my son, one that would never intentionally hit my son or harm my son or do anything like that to my son.

Well, for nine years, autism was the scariest thing that I could ever face as a human being. The day that I found out, I thought my son had hearing issues because I couldn't get his attention no matter what I tried. And he would go into these really difficult seizures and it was a really difficult situation. And I got him tested and I found out he had autism and it broke me.

Well, for nine years, autism was the scariest thing that I could ever face as a human being. The day that I found out, I thought my son had hearing issues because I couldn't get his attention no matter what I tried. And he would go into these really difficult seizures and it was a really difficult situation. And I got him tested and I found out he had autism and it broke me.

Well, for nine years, autism was the scariest thing that I could ever face as a human being. The day that I found out, I thought my son had hearing issues because I couldn't get his attention no matter what I tried. And he would go into these really difficult seizures and it was a really difficult situation. And I got him tested and I found out he had autism and it broke me.

All a father wants, or a mother for that matter, is a healthy child. Like, that's all I wanted. And, you know, seeing how difficult it was for him to learn, for him to socialize, for him to communicate, to use his words in comparison to all these other kids that are excelling in school and doing this and doing that. And having to go through that experience was a very difficult thing for me.

All a father wants, or a mother for that matter, is a healthy child. Like, that's all I wanted. And, you know, seeing how difficult it was for him to learn, for him to socialize, for him to communicate, to use his words in comparison to all these other kids that are excelling in school and doing this and doing that. And having to go through that experience was a very difficult thing for me.

All a father wants, or a mother for that matter, is a healthy child. Like, that's all I wanted. And, you know, seeing how difficult it was for him to learn, for him to socialize, for him to communicate, to use his words in comparison to all these other kids that are excelling in school and doing this and doing that. And having to go through that experience was a very difficult thing for me.

And 10 times, 10,000 times more difficult for him. So it was a lot of pain in my family system during that period of time. And I got him early help. I got him therapy, speech, OT, psychotherapy, every test that you could possibly imagine. Got him into the right schools, got all kinds of help around him, changed his diet, and then started praying and meditating with him routinely.

And 10 times, 10,000 times more difficult for him. So it was a lot of pain in my family system during that period of time. And I got him early help. I got him therapy, speech, OT, psychotherapy, every test that you could possibly imagine. Got him into the right schools, got all kinds of help around him, changed his diet, and then started praying and meditating with him routinely.