Ryan Garcia

You know, you put the wrong oil in the car, I don't care if you have a Ferrari, you know, it's not going to go.

I think that...

When, when, when you can no longer, you know, get a hold of yourself and see the decisions you're making that, that aren't good.

And you can't see that anymore.

I think that you've probably a little too far.

You know, there's times where I was moving so fast that, you know, it just didn't seem like anything I was doing was wrong, but it was, what's that mean?

I just felt like.

just felt like, even though I'm not a prideful person, it was displaying as pride to myself, you know, now looking back, like, no, that, that means it was just being prideful.

You know what I mean?

Like, like it just didn't, it didn't hit me at the time, but you know, I lost track of, of, of myself and who I really am.

And then that's when I knew I was like, oh shit, this is not, this is not good.

I didn't.

I just kind of shoved it down with alcohol and just acting out, trying to self-destruct anyway.

So I'm like, all right, everything's going bad.

Let's sink the whole shit.

Let's make it worse.

Yeah, let's just make it all worse.

And I just, you know, I had just knocked out a man and beat him so bad while self-destructing that I was like, all right, I could do whatever.

I can do this.

Yeah, I can do this.