Ryan Shelton

And so literally like Laura, who's the Laura Waters, the producer, she's written me this incredibly beautiful long message, but Siri, she tried to call me and she had, she said, I'll just let you know, just so you know.

And she just sent, and then she sent me this really lovely message, long message.

And then Siri, it just said like, show not proceeding, call you later.

And so I've just glanced down to my phone and saw that.

I was like, what?

Surely that, what's, what, what?

Cause I knew that she was talking to them today, but I didn't, I didn't know that it was going to be like a definitive yes or no situation.

And so it's, it's brutal.

It's brutal.

And I, I'm honestly not trying to like, um, garner any sympathy or anything.

It was more just meant to be like, well,

there'd be a handful of people who have been listening for such a long time and will have, will know the, you know, we've been doing this for six years and I spoke about this in the first year.

Yeah.

And I've been dreaming of it and sort of.

A lot of work.

Yeah.

But doing it in one way or another or working towards it for genuinely like 20 years more.

Yeah.

So yeah, and not to say there won't be other opportunities that hopefully there will be, but it's never gone as far as this one.

So this felt like it kind of in many ways without being like poor me, it feels like, well, this was the chance.