Sara Al Madani

He said, Baba, without this paper, you're not going to go anywhere in life.

No one's going to accept you without this degree.

No one's going to take you.

It's not going to work.

However, I was sitting down and I remember my reaction was like, oh no, let me show you what I'm going to do, yada, yada, yada, yada.

But when I went home and I slept, the child in me, the subconscious mind started taking these words my dad said and they were fermenting in my head, you know, you're not worthy, you're not worthy.

My dad, my best friend said that to me.

And ever since I started making choices based on I'm not good enough, I'm not going to be good enough.

No one's going to notice me.

No one's going to do this.

And I stayed for so many years rebelling to prove that I can do it.

Although I've done it.

I did it.

I became successful.

Yet years later, I was still proving and proving instead of enjoying my success, instead of enjoying life, I was still proving.

So this is what trauma does to you.

It crawls and creeps in your decisions, in the way you act and everything like that.

Even your triggers, you know, if we are conscious enough to put our ego aside and look at our triggers, we realize that our triggers are our untamed shadows.

That's what they are.

And this is why, you know, when you do the inner work and you do shadow work, you tame your shadow.