Sarah Kopp

I felt like he could have avoided that.

And it was conflicting because I think you're torn between feeling really good about yourself because there's this grown man who is –

could get anyone he wanted, but he's interested in you.

Yeah.

But also at the same time feeling like a bit uncomfortable about it because that's your teacher and teachers aren't meant to do things like that.

The first time I guess that the sexual contact had really escalated.

We were home alone in my house without the threat of anyone coming in or interrupting us.

So...

I never anticipated in that moment that things were going to get to that place.

I just honestly thought he was coming over to hang out with me.

And, you know, I had music on and I thought, you know, I thought we were going to have just fun time and chat and things like that.

And I remember, I think I went to turn the music off or down on the stereo and he came up behind me and just started kissing me on the back of my neck.

And I just, I froze.

I absolutely froze and I had no idea what to do.

And it was from that point, like that moment,

I just, I feel so disconnected from myself.

Like when I look back at the memory of that, it's so, it's sort of fragmented.

Thinking about it, I feel that instant sort of scared, um,

feeling again and I think I just tried to dissociate and I just didn't you know I have explained it before where I feel I felt like a bit of a robot and he was sort of maneuvering me because I I had no clue what to do I didn't know what was expected of me and I had no I

Yeah, I just, I wasn't a willing participant, I suppose.