Sarah Kopp

And it just, it went on from there.

And yeah, just him over-sexualizing me, like asking me to get into my pajamas, what I slept in.

Then at the time, I just used to wear this daggy crop top and sat in boxer shorts.

And that's kind of when he stood me back.

and was looking at me just with such like lust and the way he sort of stepped back sort of like I was on show and just looked at me for such a long time and I just felt so vulnerable so exposed I'd never had a boy my age look at me like that before it just I was so scared and just

Just an awful situation and such an imbalance of experience.

Yeah, at some point it did become that.

But at the same time, he used to tell me openly that he would hook up with another girl when he was out nightclubbing and things like that as a cover.

Because I don't, this is for us.

He goes, because I need to take the heat off us and look like I'm actually, you know, having other relationships.

And I remember just feeling absolutely gutted by that and so hurt.

But because it was framed in this way of, you know, I do, I'm doing this because I care about us and it's to protect what we have and what we have is so special.

You know, I felt really ungrateful, but I felt like an ungrateful person for not, you know, feeling appreciative of him doing that.

And, again, you know, if that had happened to me as a 30-something-year-old woman, I'd be like, rack out, like, rack off.

But, yeah, when you're a kid, you just don't realise that that stuff's not okay.

I wasn't.

You know, I was such a tomboy, I didn't, I didn't bother about hair, makeup, dressing fashionably.

You know, I used to walk around in my piping hot shirt and my cargo pants, and I was just really interested in my sports and my dancing, and didn't really think about boys too much at all, really, or, you know.

People definitely knew something was wrong.

They saw things that weren't okay, but I think lacked the understanding and the language of actually what was happening.