Sarah Wildman

We don't have to say a prayer every day. We're not recognized in the community in the same way. So we're going to have to reset this and make our own path.

I mean, I think all parents feel at some point that they're failing in both spaces. But strangely for me, work was an enormous respite. For one, I leaned heavily into editing a lot of the time during Orly's illness. And I would edit at crazy hours. Ian and I would trade off every day at the hospital, 24 hours on, 24 hours off.

I mean, I think all parents feel at some point that they're failing in both spaces. But strangely for me, work was an enormous respite. For one, I leaned heavily into editing a lot of the time during Orly's illness. And I would edit at crazy hours. Ian and I would trade off every day at the hospital, 24 hours on, 24 hours off.

I mean, I think all parents feel at some point that they're failing in both spaces. But strangely for me, work was an enormous respite. For one, I leaned heavily into editing a lot of the time during Orly's illness. And I would edit at crazy hours. Ian and I would trade off every day at the hospital, 24 hours on, 24 hours off.

But I could edit at 2 in the morning, in the dark, while she slept, and it would allow me to focus for an hour, two hours, five hours, in increments, away from the trauma of my immediate present. And I also think it gave me a different sense of the world's vulnerabilities. I would often say this to people after Orly died, that... I understand loss differently.

But I could edit at 2 in the morning, in the dark, while she slept, and it would allow me to focus for an hour, two hours, five hours, in increments, away from the trauma of my immediate present. And I also think it gave me a different sense of the world's vulnerabilities. I would often say this to people after Orly died, that... I understand loss differently.

But I could edit at 2 in the morning, in the dark, while she slept, and it would allow me to focus for an hour, two hours, five hours, in increments, away from the trauma of my immediate present. And I also think it gave me a different sense of the world's vulnerabilities. I would often say this to people after Orly died, that... I understand loss differently.

I understand pain differently in all forms. I think it made me a hope. It made me a better editor and a better writer. What's really strange is that I sometimes feel that It has been some of the best writing I've ever done, which feels really awful in some strange way that it can write to write beautiful sentences. And yet, in some way, I think it's about honoring her with them.

I understand pain differently in all forms. I think it made me a hope. It made me a better editor and a better writer. What's really strange is that I sometimes feel that It has been some of the best writing I've ever done, which feels really awful in some strange way that it can write to write beautiful sentences. And yet, in some way, I think it's about honoring her with them.

I understand pain differently in all forms. I think it made me a hope. It made me a better editor and a better writer. What's really strange is that I sometimes feel that It has been some of the best writing I've ever done, which feels really awful in some strange way that it can write to write beautiful sentences. And yet, in some way, I think it's about honoring her with them.

I want so much for people to know her. But yes, I think even now when I'm working, I worry, am I giving enough to Hana? Hana needs a lot right now. Can I drop everything when she gets home for the day and pick it back up later at night? Do I just sacrifice, let's say, sleep? Maybe I just won't sleep as much. There is this sense that it's impossible to do both.

I want so much for people to know her. But yes, I think even now when I'm working, I worry, am I giving enough to Hana? Hana needs a lot right now. Can I drop everything when she gets home for the day and pick it back up later at night? Do I just sacrifice, let's say, sleep? Maybe I just won't sleep as much. There is this sense that it's impossible to do both.

I want so much for people to know her. But yes, I think even now when I'm working, I worry, am I giving enough to Hana? Hana needs a lot right now. Can I drop everything when she gets home for the day and pick it back up later at night? Do I just sacrifice, let's say, sleep? Maybe I just won't sleep as much. There is this sense that it's impossible to do both.

But I was in a really, really fortunate position in the most unfortunate of times to be working with a team of people who constantly said to me, if you need to take a break, take a break. If you want to step away and take a leave of absence, take a leave of absence. And that was very fortunate because it allowed me to be present and

But I was in a really, really fortunate position in the most unfortunate of times to be working with a team of people who constantly said to me, if you need to take a break, take a break. If you want to step away and take a leave of absence, take a leave of absence. And that was very fortunate because it allowed me to be present and

But I was in a really, really fortunate position in the most unfortunate of times to be working with a team of people who constantly said to me, if you need to take a break, take a break. If you want to step away and take a leave of absence, take a leave of absence. And that was very fortunate because it allowed me to be present and

and advocate for Orly in the hospital and outside of it in ways that I wouldn't have been able to do in most other positions.

and advocate for Orly in the hospital and outside of it in ways that I wouldn't have been able to do in most other positions.

and advocate for Orly in the hospital and outside of it in ways that I wouldn't have been able to do in most other positions.

Yes, in some way, yes. And I worked with, I was privileged to get to work with Rachel on both two audio projects for The New York Times and at her first essay for us. I met her across the airwaves the week of October 7th. And what was remarkable to me was at the end of our conversation, and it didn't make it into our audio production, was she said she was glad that it was me.