Sarah Wildman

But she was facing a kind of pain I realized I really had never encountered. And I didn't know anyone who had encountered a physical pain. And she would sometimes ask me, What do you think I did to deserve this? And of course, that's not an answerable question. There was nothing. And it really challenged us to look at this question of, is there such a thing as deserving pain?

But she was facing a kind of pain I realized I really had never encountered. And I didn't know anyone who had encountered a physical pain. And she would sometimes ask me, What do you think I did to deserve this? And of course, that's not an answerable question. There was nothing. And it really challenged us to look at this question of, is there such a thing as deserving pain?

She would ask me about God, you know, both girls. We had a very severe experience where Orly ended up in the ICU in Hawaii. We were on a Make-A-Wish trip. It was brutal and terrifying. And Hana said, do you think God doesn't love us? The kinds of questions that they asked during this... really showed my hand, if you will. I was not able to really offer a concrete answer to any of these things.

She would ask me about God, you know, both girls. We had a very severe experience where Orly ended up in the ICU in Hawaii. We were on a Make-A-Wish trip. It was brutal and terrifying. And Hana said, do you think God doesn't love us? The kinds of questions that they asked during this... really showed my hand, if you will. I was not able to really offer a concrete answer to any of these things.

She would ask me about God, you know, both girls. We had a very severe experience where Orly ended up in the ICU in Hawaii. We were on a Make-A-Wish trip. It was brutal and terrifying. And Hana said, do you think God doesn't love us? The kinds of questions that they asked during this... really showed my hand, if you will. I was not able to really offer a concrete answer to any of these things.

I would say, I don't think that there is a God that is that activist in this way, because there is so much pain around the world. And we are experiencing this, but I don't think it's about God not loving us. You have to see divinity in the people who are helping us. I would try to turn it into thinking, how can we see good in the situation? But sometimes I was really stymied.

I would say, I don't think that there is a God that is that activist in this way, because there is so much pain around the world. And we are experiencing this, but I don't think it's about God not loving us. You have to see divinity in the people who are helping us. I would try to turn it into thinking, how can we see good in the situation? But sometimes I was really stymied.

I would say, I don't think that there is a God that is that activist in this way, because there is so much pain around the world. And we are experiencing this, but I don't think it's about God not loving us. You have to see divinity in the people who are helping us. I would try to turn it into thinking, how can we see good in the situation? But sometimes I was really stymied.

Did you have your own questions about God and your child's suffering? You know, at the very beginning, we have a very close relationship with our rabbis. And early on, one of them asked me, are you angry with God? And that's a question that actually has come up again and again within the family. But for me, it wasn't angry. It was more, as my grandfather would have said, wo ist Gott?

Did you have your own questions about God and your child's suffering? You know, at the very beginning, we have a very close relationship with our rabbis. And early on, one of them asked me, are you angry with God? And that's a question that actually has come up again and again within the family. But for me, it wasn't angry. It was more, as my grandfather would have said, wo ist Gott?

Did you have your own questions about God and your child's suffering? You know, at the very beginning, we have a very close relationship with our rabbis. And early on, one of them asked me, are you angry with God? And that's a question that actually has come up again and again within the family. But for me, it wasn't angry. It was more, as my grandfather would have said, wo ist Gott?

Like, where is God? Can you even see God in this? What does it mean to have come from a faith tradition? and feel like you've done the right things, whatever that means. Whether it means religiously, because we actually have Shabbat, we keep a kosher house, we follow many of the rules. We thought of ourselves as relatively good people. I mean, what does it mean to face this question and have...

Like, where is God? Can you even see God in this? What does it mean to have come from a faith tradition? and feel like you've done the right things, whatever that means. Whether it means religiously, because we actually have Shabbat, we keep a kosher house, we follow many of the rules. We thought of ourselves as relatively good people. I mean, what does it mean to face this question and have...

Like, where is God? Can you even see God in this? What does it mean to have come from a faith tradition? and feel like you've done the right things, whatever that means. Whether it means religiously, because we actually have Shabbat, we keep a kosher house, we follow many of the rules. We thought of ourselves as relatively good people. I mean, what does it mean to face this question and have...

The whole world turned upside down. It felt like there wasn't really a space for God within it. And you had to constantly search for what that looked like. I had to really see it in the divinity of people who went out of their way to help us and that weren't afraid of us. It is very easy to be afraid of a family going through a catastrophe.

The whole world turned upside down. It felt like there wasn't really a space for God within it. And you had to constantly search for what that looked like. I had to really see it in the divinity of people who went out of their way to help us and that weren't afraid of us. It is very easy to be afraid of a family going through a catastrophe.

The whole world turned upside down. It felt like there wasn't really a space for God within it. And you had to constantly search for what that looked like. I had to really see it in the divinity of people who went out of their way to help us and that weren't afraid of us. It is very easy to be afraid of a family going through a catastrophe.

It's really difficult because sometimes I also felt that people wanted me to cry with them. And I cry a lot, but I can't cry every time someone cries to me. And I sometimes... felt that it was hard. I didn't know who to comfort in that space. Sometimes what ends up happening if someone cries to me is that the roles reverse. I end up comforting them. I can't say it's okay because it's not, right?

It's really difficult because sometimes I also felt that people wanted me to cry with them. And I cry a lot, but I can't cry every time someone cries to me. And I sometimes... felt that it was hard. I didn't know who to comfort in that space. Sometimes what ends up happening if someone cries to me is that the roles reverse. I end up comforting them. I can't say it's okay because it's not, right?

It's really difficult because sometimes I also felt that people wanted me to cry with them. And I cry a lot, but I can't cry every time someone cries to me. And I sometimes... felt that it was hard. I didn't know who to comfort in that space. Sometimes what ends up happening if someone cries to me is that the roles reverse. I end up comforting them. I can't say it's okay because it's not, right?