Sarah

And like, I don't miss him when he's gone.

And I don't know, is this like, am I just experiencing something very healthy?

And I'm just not like excited.

And it's like, I'm confusing it for being boring.

Well, that's the thing is I've been really trying to look at my past relationships and I don't think, I really don't think I chase like toxic relationships.

I don't think, I mean, I've been in toxic relationships, but I think I'm pretty easy to like recognize it and get out of it.

And in whether it's been a healthy relationship or a toxic one, I'm always usually like excited, kind of giddy.

Because I was, like, excited to meet their families.

I was excited to, like, see them.

And even if it was just, like, hang out and watch a movie, like, I was...

I feel like in those situations, it was very equal.

Like they liked me as much as I liked them.

And in this, I like, I know he liked me more.

I would say another question, like to bounce off of all of this is that I don't think he's like a two, but I also don't think he's like, obviously a 10.

And like, I. So he's a five.

So he's a five.

And that's fine.

And I don't have like, I don't think the looks thing is like the problem for me.

It's more of like when he kisses me, like I, I'm just not into it.

And I don't know if like, that's something that I should like work on with him.