Sarah

And it just feels a little awkward.

And we started hanging out very regularly, almost like every weekend we would hang out a night or two.

And then Valentine's Day like was coming up and I got him some things for Valentine's Day and he would get me something.

And I got him a card because I know they're super important to him.

It's something that he really likes and values someone writing down their feelings.

And I couldn't write in it because I can't.

I can't lie.

And like, I don't miss him when he's gone.

And I don't know, is this like, am I just experiencing something very healthy?

And I'm just not like excited.

And it's like, I'm confusing it for being boring.

Well, that's the thing is I've been really trying to look at my past relationships and I don't think, I really don't think I chase like toxic relationships.

I don't think, I mean, I've been in toxic relationships, but I think I'm pretty easy to like recognize it and get out of it.

And in whether it's been a healthy relationship or a toxic one, I'm always usually like excited, kind of giddy.

Because I was, like, excited to meet their families.

I was excited to, like, see them.

And even if it was just, like, hang out and watch a movie, like, I was...

I feel like in those situations, it was very equal.

Like they liked me as much as I liked them.

And in this, I like, I know he liked me more.