Seth Gehle

Yeah. So. I crawled in my room and I lay in my room and I cry and cry and cry. And that's when I that's kind of one of those days where I was just kind of like, I'm going to do something special with my life. I'm going to get the hell out of here. I'm going to do like this is not normal. This is not OK. It's also I began to have like a lot of suicidal ideation.

started thinking about killing myself a lot I would think about different ways I could do it which there's you know a few mechanisms as a child and shooting stabbing drowning jumping were like the things that I would think about I just, I was scared to feel pain. So that's like the thing that detracted me the most was I just didn't want to feel the pain.

started thinking about killing myself a lot I would think about different ways I could do it which there's you know a few mechanisms as a child and shooting stabbing drowning jumping were like the things that I would think about I just, I was scared to feel pain. So that's like the thing that detracted me the most was I just didn't want to feel the pain.

started thinking about killing myself a lot I would think about different ways I could do it which there's you know a few mechanisms as a child and shooting stabbing drowning jumping were like the things that I would think about I just, I was scared to feel pain. So that's like the thing that detracted me the most was I just didn't want to feel the pain.

So I would sit outside my window at night, like no shit staring down 25 feet below. Like if I land just right, I'll fucking break my neck and die. But if I don't, I'm just going to be this asshole who's crippled or tried to kill himself. You know? Um, I mean, that's, that's literally the, the, the process that was going through my brain at 10, 10 years old. And, uh,

So I would sit outside my window at night, like no shit staring down 25 feet below. Like if I land just right, I'll fucking break my neck and die. But if I don't, I'm just going to be this asshole who's crippled or tried to kill himself. You know? Um, I mean, that's, that's literally the, the, the process that was going through my brain at 10, 10 years old. And, uh,

So I would sit outside my window at night, like no shit staring down 25 feet below. Like if I land just right, I'll fucking break my neck and die. But if I don't, I'm just going to be this asshole who's crippled or tried to kill himself. You know? Um, I mean, that's, that's literally the, the, the process that was going through my brain at 10, 10 years old. And, uh,

thought about stabbing myself, thought about shooting myself. I didn't have access to a weapon, had knives, but I was scared of that pain. So I never did anything, never attempted it. Nonetheless, those thoughts were probably nearly every day. Eventually they did become every day, but maybe in the early stages they weren't every day, but they were pretty frequent. And Ten years old.

thought about stabbing myself, thought about shooting myself. I didn't have access to a weapon, had knives, but I was scared of that pain. So I never did anything, never attempted it. Nonetheless, those thoughts were probably nearly every day. Eventually they did become every day, but maybe in the early stages they weren't every day, but they were pretty frequent. And Ten years old.

thought about stabbing myself, thought about shooting myself. I didn't have access to a weapon, had knives, but I was scared of that pain. So I never did anything, never attempted it. Nonetheless, those thoughts were probably nearly every day. Eventually they did become every day, but maybe in the early stages they weren't every day, but they were pretty frequent. And Ten years old.

OK, so my mom, she starts to work at night. So she starts to work. We would go to bed at eight o'clock or so. She'd go to work and she worked a factory shift. So she'd work like nine to nine, you know, at night. And we lived in this neighborhood. One night, my sisters wake me up. And they say, Seth, somebody's trying to break in. And I'm like, what do you mean?

OK, so my mom, she starts to work at night. So she starts to work. We would go to bed at eight o'clock or so. She'd go to work and she worked a factory shift. So she'd work like nine to nine, you know, at night. And we lived in this neighborhood. One night, my sisters wake me up. And they say, Seth, somebody's trying to break in. And I'm like, what do you mean?

OK, so my mom, she starts to work at night. So she starts to work. We would go to bed at eight o'clock or so. She'd go to work and she worked a factory shift. So she'd work like nine to nine, you know, at night. And we lived in this neighborhood. One night, my sisters wake me up. And they say, Seth, somebody's trying to break in. And I'm like, what do you mean?

I think they're messing with me at first. And I wake up and my one sister has a knife and the other sister has an alarm clock. She has the cord wrapped around her hand so she can swing it around, right? I'm like, okay, they're serious. So we get downstairs and at... nine, 10, 11 years old, me and my sisters are standing in the kitchen.

I think they're messing with me at first. And I wake up and my one sister has a knife and the other sister has an alarm clock. She has the cord wrapped around her hand so she can swing it around, right? I'm like, okay, they're serious. So we get downstairs and at... nine, 10, 11 years old, me and my sisters are standing in the kitchen.

I think they're messing with me at first. And I wake up and my one sister has a knife and the other sister has an alarm clock. She has the cord wrapped around her hand so she can swing it around, right? I'm like, okay, they're serious. So we get downstairs and at... nine, 10, 11 years old, me and my sisters are standing in the kitchen.

We're watching the back door that has the handle deadbolt and a two by four nailed across the door. And I'm just watching it just ripping from the frame. Like there's three men outside my back door. One of them's got a baseball bat. The one has sledgehammer and some other sort of blunt object.

We're watching the back door that has the handle deadbolt and a two by four nailed across the door. And I'm just watching it just ripping from the frame. Like there's three men outside my back door. One of them's got a baseball bat. The one has sledgehammer and some other sort of blunt object.

We're watching the back door that has the handle deadbolt and a two by four nailed across the door. And I'm just watching it just ripping from the frame. Like there's three men outside my back door. One of them's got a baseball bat. The one has sledgehammer and some other sort of blunt object.

And they're, I mean, literally just like boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, just striking this door, trying to get in the house. And I don't remember if I grabbed anything or what I had done, but we're standing there and we didn't have anything. We didn't have like electronics. We didn't have money. We didn't have anything for these people to get.