Seth Gehle

And I'm at his house Sunday, Sunday morning, we're getting ready to watch some, you know, football at noon or one o'clock. And Jacob left to go get tacos down the street. And I was sitting on the couch and, uh, I told Mondo I was cold, you know? And so he's like, well, why don't you sit on my lap? And he had a blanket. And so I get up in his lap and he's a big guy sit on his left leg.

He's got his left hand on my left hip. Um, big, big fucking hands and his very calloused hands. I'll never forget what his hands feel like. Um, big calloused hands and, uh, long nails. His knuckles were so like, like big and dry and calloused. Like he would take them and rub them together and it would sound like rocks.

He's got his left hand on my left hip. Um, big, big fucking hands and his very calloused hands. I'll never forget what his hands feel like. Um, big calloused hands and, uh, long nails. His knuckles were so like, like big and dry and calloused. Like he would take them and rub them together and it would sound like rocks.

He's got his left hand on my left hip. Um, big, big fucking hands and his very calloused hands. I'll never forget what his hands feel like. Um, big calloused hands and, uh, long nails. His knuckles were so like, like big and dry and calloused. Like he would take them and rub them together and it would sound like rocks.

And he would always, it was like, it was like one of these weird things he would always do. So I just, I just remember like hearing his knuckles. He'd always do that. Um, but anyways, I was sitting on his, on his lap and he's got his left hand on my left hip and we're, I'm laying there in his chest covered up in a blanket, nice and warm. And truth be told, I was so comfortable, man. I was like,

And he would always, it was like, it was like one of these weird things he would always do. So I just, I just remember like hearing his knuckles. He'd always do that. Um, but anyways, I was sitting on his, on his lap and he's got his left hand on my left hip and we're, I'm laying there in his chest covered up in a blanket, nice and warm. And truth be told, I was so comfortable, man. I was like,

And he would always, it was like, it was like one of these weird things he would always do. So I just, I just remember like hearing his knuckles. He'd always do that. Um, but anyways, I was sitting on his, on his lap and he's got his left hand on my left hip and we're, I'm laying there in his chest covered up in a blanket, nice and warm. And truth be told, I was so comfortable, man. I was like,

I don't know if you have a father in your life, but the love of a father or of another man is something essential to men. Like men need that. We need other men's love and affection and caring, especially young boys. And I'd never had that. I'd never in my life... been held by another man, you know, I'd never been held or cared for or loved for by another man.

I don't know if you have a father in your life, but the love of a father or of another man is something essential to men. Like men need that. We need other men's love and affection and caring, especially young boys. And I'd never had that. I'd never in my life... been held by another man, you know, I'd never been held or cared for or loved for by another man.

I don't know if you have a father in your life, but the love of a father or of another man is something essential to men. Like men need that. We need other men's love and affection and caring, especially young boys. And I'd never had that. I'd never in my life... been held by another man, you know, I'd never been held or cared for or loved for by another man.

Um, and so when I laid there, I just felt so fucking comfortable. And he was like a big dude. It was like a big pillow. And, um, you know, his left hand slips off my hip and hits me in the butt. And he says, I'm sorry. He says, my bad. I'm like, not a big deal. Like I figured like if me and you bump each other in the hallway, it's not a big deal. And this is just a tactic.

Um, and so when I laid there, I just felt so fucking comfortable. And he was like a big dude. It was like a big pillow. And, um, you know, his left hand slips off my hip and hits me in the butt. And he says, I'm sorry. He says, my bad. I'm like, not a big deal. Like I figured like if me and you bump each other in the hallway, it's not a big deal. And this is just a tactic.

Um, and so when I laid there, I just felt so fucking comfortable. And he was like a big dude. It was like a big pillow. And, um, you know, his left hand slips off my hip and hits me in the butt. And he says, I'm sorry. He says, my bad. I'm like, not a big deal. Like I figured like if me and you bump each other in the hallway, it's not a big deal. And this is just a tactic.

It's just testing the water and figuring out when it gets too hot, you know? And so he puts his hand back on my butt and he says, so this is okay. And I just said, yeah, that's fine. You know, not a big deal. It's okay. And right at that moment, I knew what was happening, which sucks to admit, but I knew what was happening. Dude, you were 10. I know. Yeah. I know, but it still sucks.

It's just testing the water and figuring out when it gets too hot, you know? And so he puts his hand back on my butt and he says, so this is okay. And I just said, yeah, that's fine. You know, not a big deal. It's okay. And right at that moment, I knew what was happening, which sucks to admit, but I knew what was happening. Dude, you were 10. I know. Yeah. I know, but it still sucks.

It's just testing the water and figuring out when it gets too hot, you know? And so he puts his hand back on my butt and he says, so this is okay. And I just said, yeah, that's fine. You know, not a big deal. It's okay. And right at that moment, I knew what was happening, which sucks to admit, but I knew what was happening. Dude, you were 10. I know. Yeah. I know, but it still sucks.

And it's like being at the top of a roller coaster and you hear that last click and you're about to go down and like you're strapped in, though, like you can't get off this ride and you're about to. And that's kind of how it feels. You're just like, I can't move. Like, what am I going to do? Like, I can't move. And so there's there's like the flight or flight or freeze or whatever the hell. Right.

And it's like being at the top of a roller coaster and you hear that last click and you're about to go down and like you're strapped in, though, like you can't get off this ride and you're about to. And that's kind of how it feels. You're just like, I can't move. Like, what am I going to do? Like, I can't move. And so there's there's like the flight or flight or freeze or whatever the hell. Right.

And it's like being at the top of a roller coaster and you hear that last click and you're about to go down and like you're strapped in, though, like you can't get off this ride and you're about to. And that's kind of how it feels. You're just like, I can't move. Like, what am I going to do? Like, I can't move. And so there's there's like the flight or flight or freeze or whatever the hell. Right.

And I froze up, which is very typical. Um, and then freezing is basically consent to, uh, those people, right? Um, because they know as soon as you freeze up or you don't reject or deny, uh, that approach that, um, you've got them essentially, you know, and so you just push the limits further, uh, as much as you can. Um, and the people that do this are very strategic. They're very manipulative.